i’ve always found myself dwelling on the thought of having a family, for i don’t think one understands the beauty it has until you actually live it. if you’re wondering, as to how do I know it, it’s for I’ve felt it in the words of oh so many people that I’ve read or seen glimpses around all of me. it may not all be smiles, for there is a lot to it, but ‘having a family’ is definitely one of the most beautifully natural spectacle there is.
my love isn’t fiction nor are my dreams. i write the reality that we live in. and with the same sight such as mine, many begin on this journey of sharing a life full of surprises with the one they love. the engagement, the wedding day or days if it’s an indian wedding, the honeymoon, and oh then the dream life. every moment of it feels surreal for you’re living with the one you love in a house of your own. each day might seem monotonous, but still, all of it is beautiful, if you both are in deeply in love with each other. it all starts from waking up next to each other, as you open your eyes slowly to her, lying in your arms, her eyes shut. oh how beautiful is even the thought of this. i feel it all. the embrace, the love, the way her eyes would open oh so slowly and oh how she would smile at me. her sunrise eyes, is all the light that I’d need. I’ve a habit of spoiling, so i might cook some breakfast and feed her. the rest of the day shall pass, doing errands together, being all goofy, giggling, dreaming of kids, cuddling and oh making love, until the sunset and even during it. all of this does sound beautiful, doesn’t it? it indeed is, if the love that you both share is pure and true. i might not have lived all of this, but oh I’ve felt it all and more.
but life is not all rainbows. sometimes you may be in a relationship which rather breaks you for not everyone is that lucky to have that kind of comfort and love. it is rare, but so are you. so have hope.
my heart aches for all those women, who oh lie teary tonight, for whom they loved with all of theirs, was the one to hurt them the most. being cheated on, lied to, stole from, used, being abused by are a few fundamental reasons for the same. now there may be other reasons too, but what is of importance is not what caused it but what they lost. the comfort, the love, the trust, the dreams. oh how all of it shattered to pieces. and oh I understand it is hard, but remember that palaces of now were dust yesterday. forgive those who sin, for they are lost and move on to bigger and better things. for there’s something that’s worth it and the day you’d have that, it’ll be what it was always meant to be.
marriages are supposed to be pure. they are the essence, that lies the foundation of love. the foundation of building a future, with kids of their own. these are delicate dreams which when you do live while being with the one you love, feels beautiful. now if you’ve read me before, you would know that, oh i want daughters. oh how I would give anything to become a dad and hear the lil adorable ones call me dad while my wife smiles her brightest as she plays with them. daughter’s are really a blessing. you’ll know, when you live it. pregnancy is also one precious epoch. now every little thing to it is something you’ll love. there’s no end to, what one lives through all of it for each day is new as you live through it.
but sadly, not every lady is lucky enough to understand the exquisiteness to this feeling of sharing what one shares while being in a marriage and during the pregnancy. it breaks my heart, to hear as to how cruel and selfish can really people be.
some desert their loved ones while they are pregnant. some breaks the home, one thought that would last, for they had always dreamt of it. it really does break my heart. oh how I wish, i could be there for all of them or i just wish someone would for oh no one deserves to be scared and alone, when all of it meant to be full of joy. oh how I wish, people would not be what they are but just a better version of themselves.
it is hard people. it is hard getting through pregnancy alone. when you don’t have any help from anywhere. you’ve to work. you’ve to sacrifice so much and no one will do it for you. and that’s a fact of life. this world definitely lacks kindness and so only you, yourself have to know what’s best for you even if it means letting go.
it is also very difficult raising kids, as a single mother. they would sacrifice all their happiness, all their dreams and would just strive to give their best for their kids. they would make sure, their kids get every joy in the world that their is. i admire and respect these ladies. for they are strong-willed and fearless. they do what they do, to put smiles on their kids faces. they are selfless and are the ones who understands what it really means to love someone for they lack it. they lack a comfort, a help, someone to look after them, someone to cry it out to, someone to share their fears with, someone to hold on to; on the coldest nights. they never show it, nor will they ever but they do feel all of it. when they love, they love purely. they have high walls around them, letting only the right one in, and this time it shall last. for the time has come for them to smile.
love is not in just the moment. love is for an eternity. love wisely. love truly. and most importantly, love right.