oh please

give me the strength that i lack
to cry not just in my words anymore
but amidst the softness, of oh a few vibration’s
beating; since me
to somewhere far away or maybe near

all the knots, i had to undo and will
oh please, give me the strength to bear it all

oh please, look after me
when i try to make a city, i’ve never lived in
my home, for some time

please
allow me to fall in love, while i’m there

a love that will last
a love i long for

a sweet beginning

please allow me
to hold just but a hand
of someone innocently pretty

oh please, give me the strength
to let not this pain, i witness
take a part of me

to let not this pain, that i feel
make me even more quieter than i was yesterday

oh please give me the strength
to build a home
and a family

oh please, give me the strength

oh please

gift me all abstract and oh i shall be grateful.

with love









i lost

i stood as but just a coward in my eyes
for oh i failed; oh i lost

talking about love and hope
in everything, i write and sing

oh why didn’t you, who meant to; create
did something to bring about a change
on this oh so dark night

you were but powerless, for oh you didn’t work hard enough
you are but a coward

don’t you dare, talk or write about love or hope
until you can revive all that they lost, then

don’t you dare whisper about light
when all you did was to reside in shadows

don’t you dare

this world; full of greed and pain

oh i’m sorry, that oh i lost; teary at their pain

i cried

oh i’m sorry, forgive me

i shall not write any love, until the day

i have filled all listening

with the sound of my music

for i may have lost, but oh i’m still breathing; hit

for just one purpose, more bent than ever

i will not lose

i will be back

i’ll return

i promise

insha-allah

with love

subtle

i’ve learnt how the most beautiful, is really at time’s the most subtle of them all. there’s something really evergreen about imperfection.

moment’s which one could never foresee; were never really expected; are really the one’s, that has the most value to them. you may not realize it, straight away. but it’ll show itself, when you’re on your own some day, reminiscing.

i’ve lived times, of the same, which were abrupt, but were the one’s that really, became the lil dream’s that i lived.

and well, i’ve lived a few tbh, not many

i don’t consider all i’ve been intimate with, a dream. i would have left, on my own, if i would have felt something to synthetic to it. and well, i’ve left

that’s why, there’s only a few.

i do long for love, but i don’t really have a specific person, to live all that i want to, with the same. it’ll all be better, when it’s all organic. for it is really there, where lies; longevity.

i saw a rather sweet dream this morning. and that’s precisely why, i’m here writing

anyway,

i personally wouldn’t care for, from really she is or if she was ever with someone
i won’t care for what the world might have to say, or anyone for that matter
i won’t care but for the morals my heart follows. the morals that makes me a human.

i won’t let no man or religion let my thought’s conflict, w the morality in me
i’ll make new rules, if i’ve to
nvm.

i dream of a really simple romance. with someone equally innocent.

but oh i just don’t seem to fall for just anyone

you can feel free to walk away, walk towards, it’ll feel all the same to me, really

anyway i guess, i’m not falling for in love, anytime soon

but whenever it maybe, it’ll feel lovely to me.

to then

when i’ll have it all

even if it’s very little

with love


places

“place’s have place’s within them.”

i couldn’t really seem to confine my future, to what really would just disable my dreams, before they could stand; an university.
and as a result i really had a hard time, just even going to one, because it really just wasn’t who i’m. and it’s not really, that i didnt try. it just could never be me. i tried
apart from attending the classes and paying attention to lectures, which most times didn’t really led me anywhere, i did all of it

had some really good food, wrote, expressed my love and all that i’m, in ways i was rather new to.
while sitting in some isolated garden and well, just doing my own thing really. i always was in my own zone, thinking of things, i care about.
this is more or less what my college life looked like.

and please do note that i’m not encouraging you to do the same. this is the path, that i chose. and it’s really not easy at all. but well, i’ve grown to keep my pain to myself.

anyway i did learn something. i learnt that well, even if you end up in a place, you don’t really like or want to be, you can still be rather happy and make a part of that place, your own.

you really perceive things, the way you’d like them to see.

i open up about my vision, of a place, and that may lead you to believe that this alternative to what you used to think, exists.

romance is all about discovering and finding a comfort, with what little you’ve.

you’d still cherish it.

crooked paths may seem as if they are just deviating you from your dream, but maybe they are just helping you get closer, as long as you don’t lose what you believe in; as long as you don’t give in to the environment around you.

anyway, in a similar manner, i found a few places, which felt and looked different to me.
every visit brought me closer to these few places, around the campus and i really spent hour’s working there and i loved every bit of it.

one of them became romantic, because of this one girl, i met. and if i were to be honest, i do think of her, at times. missing. but well, it is what it is.

i really have no regrets. i did what i wanted to.

with love

cold

it’s all rather melancholic. the way, i see those who begging on the streets, looking for alternative ways, to play with the genuine feelings of so many.

oh who really is to blame?

oh these mere humans of stone, are but a small glimpse of the true nature; defining the existence of those who; seen and not
cruel;

oh how this world is oh really devoid of, what it should be in abundance in it’s every crevice; edges

oh i wonder, how many were fearful today; oh how many will be there tomorrow

is there no end really, to all suffering?

oh i ask you, is there really not?

how i hoped charity was but a loophole to all that is wrong in this world

but oh all who in it, lacks the presence; for it is that, what really is needed


look beyond you; look further than the rest

unless you’d like to live the

selfish way, like all

with love

truth

the love in me still flows
oh i wouldn’t waver from this love in me
for oh indeed, i still seem to be hoping

oh love is not, what will quench my thirst
but oh it surely will make sure
i never feel that feeling

each day, i seem to be spending my time
on things but of minor detail

but oh in the end, they will be the one’s
turning the shallow sunsets and oceans
that i drew
to a form of art that is oh but keen
to become one with nature

oh i chose to lose it all, for but this cause

i’ll wait and stand with time
to be able to hold her hand

but oh i won’t stay stagnant

if i don’t seem to find worthy of you

for at times, love also may end up hurting you

but not everyone deserves, such sacrifice; just one.

until then

with love

shortly

i’m disobeying the laws of this society, which oh not many seem to do. it is indeed hard, to deviate from the disciplined life, that one earns himself. but oh i just don’t belong there. oh i don’t. and that’s why, i won’t force myself anymore or limit myself, to do all that i’ve always wanted to

oh my body long’s for love, which oh is not what i use as an escape; but is the core, because of which i’m able to breathe; with someone, worthy of loving

oh how i miss having someone, to live stories with, every day that goes by, for it’ll be but the way of my life.
oh how much i really, i want to meet those eyes, i would never have to bid goodbye too; for oh i’d reside in them, for longer than our hearts would beat

i can’t seem to paraphrase my love or my dreams, in a few mere words. oh i just want to live them, now
oh i’d risk all that is left precious to me, for someone i consider, the one and only for me

her hair in a bun; cute

her soothing eyes, i’d look at, as and when she looks at me

oh i long for someone such as this; secretly

oh how i long for her to light up my heart that lies in mist

looking for only the warmth, that resides in her

oh my love, let me put my shirt around you
after we made love, that is oh my love, the warmest i’ve felt
in the past few years, that just really flew by
to reach today, to you and to oh my love; what we share

if there’s something, that oh my love, i’ve wished for time and again
it is but
for a love
to be able to love
to be able to be loved

oh my love, how i still see, sides to you naked
as you’ve my shirt around, as a robe
wearing an underwear

as oh my love, i held you from behind; all naked
while oh we look out the 50th floor
to a view, which oh my love, is as exquisite
as the art, i seem to create, with you in my mind

oh how my love, i’ll always have something to live with you
for oh my love, i’ll plant to life, even the faintest of your dreams
that you saw; told me about

oh my love, i do not know, if i’d meet you where i was born
or where my dreams led me to migrate

but oh my where ever it maybe

it’ll all end with you, laying in my arms

in a small restaurant of our’s

somewhere peaceful

just you and me; together.


oh i’ve written the same, so many times now, it all is as if i memorized it; but oh my love, as i’d meet you, oh don’t mind me, if i were to forget a few

remind them on my lips, and oh my love

i’d be sure, to take care of the rest

in ways, i was but inspired by you


oh my love, be what you would like to be, live like you would like to be, live how you’d like to
i’ll be there, through it all

with love

i chose to lose it all

i’m torn between the two worlds.

to be able to take in one; i’ll have to let loose on a lot more, i’ve held on too, since the time i was born.

i really have no where to hide, or to go somewhere in search of shelter

i’ve nothing in my palms, but a belief in me

that oh all i dream for; long for; live for

will be but my reality

or it is what i hope

of myself to become


i’ll be but homeless, orphan, alone

until i’ve an identity

until i’ll be but a success


oh i shall try to endure all

i shall try to bear; all that’s in my way


probably will be the path; the darkest i’ve traveled


oh i seem to know all that i await; but oh i shall continue

to live a life, that is of worth


breaking all bonds; from where i originated

doing no evil, but just the fulfilling desires of my heart


with really no one believing in me

oh i really do feel scared


oh i fear this change, that oh will alter my life

in ways, i can’t comprehend

but oh i know


my life, my future; has but become a gamble

the dice is what i threw

oh the sound of it hitting the ground; echoed all the decisions i’ve taken

knowing not; if i was the lucky one after all


oh if there be such a thing as god, then oh please grant this son of your’s

your blessing;

to face every difficulty

to face pain

to face failure

to work hard

to become no one else

but what he always thought he would be

belonging’s; garden

“i marry you in moments, every day”

and oh that is how, my love, i was slowly nurturing you, so as to plant you next to me, in the garden, that belonged to me, and all the people, that i met. some were flowery, some just bare; with no leaves. some were old and tall, some were still buds, but oh my love, all of them, were but beautiful, with your leaf on mine, we stood in the middle of all who were but a part of me.

and oh my love, oh how beautiful, did it feel, as i imagined it all?

oh how my love, i spent months, molding my craft; since you
learning how can it all feel like music, while i’m but reciting; riyaaz.

oh how my love, i kept myself, from reaching out to you; waiting patiently, so as to work, until i can do it right

only to, my love
give my all, to take place, where there really lies no one; in you

oh how my love, i dreamt of but you
sitting oh so alone in my room, with my eyes sparkling
as i gradually explored, so as to do something, i’ve never
for but you, to smile; like you never will

treating you the same, yet oh so differently
for oh my love, you were but special

oh how my love, i dreamt to hold your arms, in my hand
driving to find a quite place, under the stars

where oh my love, we can cuddle; not naked
in the car

looking at the moon, while oh you lay on my lap
i look towards you, oh you look towards me
our eyes did meet, my love
but so did our lips

oh how my love, it all felt so warm
as i held on to you tight; caressing all to you
asking you to rest your eyes
while oh my love, i whispered; you’re home.


i’ve always loved love. but to make myself capable of being loved; oh the price isn’t easy
for i’ve big dreams, i’d like to do for the one i love
love is but my dream; the only way of life, i seem to know
seemingly simple; but a dream come true for all
not a luxury; nor a necessity
but the only truth

you’ll lose a lot to you, but as long as you don’t lose yourself, you’ll be good
let the noises remain noises; don’t answer
know to never look back
forgive them, but never forget


also i recollected two of whom i lost, years ago. it felt good. but well, i’m used to being alone. and i’d still keep it that way.

to each it’s own, i guess

with love